Part 5

I feel like it lasted forever. All those emotions I have in me. I thought it'll never end. Until He opened my eyes. And most importantly, my heart. He showed me signs. That He still remembers me. He still loves me. That I can still be saved. And He, indeed wants to save me. That I can try again. Another chance.

My sister found out about the talk, The Heart Serene. That was the starting point. That was exactly what I needed. For once, after a couple of years, I feel alive. It was the most beautiful awakening. That moment. That precise moment, where I want to stop doing whatever I was doing at that time. He had given me signs, trying to save me. And yet I blindfold myself. I didn't want to waste another second of my life. I don't know much about what I have to do. I have so very little knowledge about the religion. But I knew I needed to do something. There's a voice in me saying I have to find out. I don't how or when, I just knew I needed a change.

Little did I know, that moment, changed me. There was no going back. I'm pulled forward to it.